Lonely in the crowd

I see you here, I see you there.
I see you from a distance, i am happy.
I like the way you are, its the way i want you to be.

I take a step closer, I read those eyes,
They seem to be wandering, not really what I had wanted,
I can see the expression all the more clear, its all blank,
I realise too late, but i know, you are just lonely in the crowd,
I feel the pain, as it pierces within,
as i think of the day I had to leave,
i regret the day i had to decide, the day i knew i was walking away,
but it was too late, to realise there was no return…

Today I smile, i laugh, i dance, but somewhere deep within its a striking pain,
Its a tear that refuses to make its way out, A tear struggling its way out,
A fear that refuses to leave,  a hunger that never lets me sleep.
I wonder about the day in the grave, when I would still not sleep,
Remembering the wandering eyes, that still makes you lonely in the crowd.