Lonely in the crowd

I see you here, I see you there.
I see you from a distance, i am happy.
I like the way you are, its the way i want you to be.

I take a step closer, I read those eyes,
They seem to be wandering, not really what I had wanted,
I can see the expression all the more clear, its all blank,
I realise too late, but i know, you are just lonely in the crowd,
I feel the pain, as it pierces within,
as i think of the day I had to leave,
i regret the day i had to decide, the day i knew i was walking away,
but it was too late, to realise there was no return…

Today I smile, i laugh, i dance, but somewhere deep within its a striking pain,
Its a tear that refuses to make its way out, A tear struggling its way out,
A fear that refuses to leave,  a hunger that never lets me sleep.
I wonder about the day in the grave, when I would still not sleep,
Remembering the wandering eyes, that still makes you lonely in the crowd.

Loneliness I Long For…

When I look into your eyes, I think I am your world,
When I lie by your side, I think I am all you need,
It’s like heaven to be in your arms and not worry about the world,
You keep the world side to be in a world you have always desired.
Then I see a change, which I wonder about.
Am I the reason for the change, or is change the reason for me?
Is it jus the presence that can make the difference,
Or is it right in the thought?
Why do i ask questions I dont seek answers for,
Answers which are uncertain and complicated,
Answers which I am happy without being known to me.
Why do I have to bid Goodbye,
When i Know its you I would seek solace in, yet again and again,
Arent you the loneliness I have always wanted,
Arent you the solace in being alone I have always desired,
Arent you the one who looks at me only when i look at you,
Wont you come by again when I need you
You are the loneliness I long for,
which runs away from me when I need you the most.
All i need is to be lonely on this road,
all I need is you, the loneliness to be with me,
Just dont ask me why ‘coz I can never say Why…